The past few months have been really trying on my life, my marriage, my family, and my sanity. Last week I finally started to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
1. I have been unemployed since the end of November. I was collecting unemployment but for anyone in this day and age who has unfortunately had to go through unemployment, we all know it’s not an income that you can survive off of unless you are excellent with money and frugal with your spending. I, however, am not one of those people. Well the time came. I started a new job on Monday, the pay is good, the company is good, and I am pleased to say I am finally employed once again. Of course I totally miss spending all day with my little Aubree and then being home when Hailie gets off the school bus because these days and moments go by so quick, but I am blessed to have a job and help to support my family.
2. As you have seen in my past post, Sticking to your guns, my eldest daughter has truly been testing my patience. Since sticking to our guns we have made some serious changes over the past week and a lot more communication has happened, (well as much as you can with a 5-year-old) and it seems that our plan worked! The teacher has been giving praise, the mornings and nights have become much easier, and though we haven’t given her back everything she has lost, it seems that the lessons we set out to teach have been successful. This is such a win in my parenting book!
3. My poor Aubree has been sick for SIX weeks. Yes, you read that right. Six long and grueling weeks. It all started with an ear infection which we just couldn’t kick. To this day and after 3 different antibiotics, she was finally able to get some relief and the infection is finally going away. She also was teething during this process and had about a week of very high temp fevers. Add in a bout of asthma, croup, congestion, and more sleepless nights than I can count – it’s been a grueling time and my heart has been hurting for her so much. Finally, at our appointment this past Friday, the doctor said she is doing so much better and she is finally back to her silly self!
4. My marriage has definitely taken a toll in all this. Of course, most people want to paint a perfect image of their lives but my life is far from perfect! Would I change it, not for a second but that doesn’t mean some days I don’t want to throw in the towel because I am just feeling so drained. With me out of work, the constant sickness with one child and the defiance with another, it definitely hit us hard. After all is said and done, we are of course doing much better. The times were difficult but with communication and patience, we were able to tackle all the obstacles in front of us and get back to our normal selves once again.
5. Though my lack of sleep seems to still be in full force as I sit here and write a blog post at 1:07AM, I can’t help but think of how thankful I am. As we start a new schedule and try to make every day and night as easy and carefree as possible, I just remember where we were just a short time ago and where we are now.
LISTEN UP PEOPLE. I promise, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. When you are at your wit’s end, be patient because everything comes together. I recently applied for a potential dream job and after weeks of waiting post interview, I found out they hired internally. I wasn’t even upset about it to be honest because I knew that the universe has some divine plan where I wasn’t meant to get that job and to keep the job I started this past week. I remind myself that I am blessed daily with my amazing husband, two beautiful girls, a great family, a good job, and so much more. There were definitely moments when I thought that Hailie was never going to listen to me again until she became an adult herself, that Aubree was going to be sick till the end of time, that I wouldn’t find another good paying job before my unemployment ran out, and that my marriage was hanging by a thread. Sometimes you just have to take a deep breath and remind yourself to look for all the good. Tell yourself that the light at the end of tunnel is there and these obstacles have made you a better person as you have overcome each one of them. I am a firm believer in the fact that everything happens for a reason and I am thankful for where I am today and what I went through yesterday. I know that no matter what happens, it will all work out because there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
The light at the end of this tunnel, came with a new shade of lipstick ! Good things are always around, you just have to look for them.